To Him,

- i can't believe i just gave up. I just let you drop out of my life. I tried to make you stay, then one day it just got too hard and i saw what you really wanted was a life without me. So i gave up and now you're really gone. I wish i could make you come back, but tears, wishing, and reminiscing do nothing, but make my heart break a little more.
- So as of right now, i know what's best for me. and that's to get over him, even though i can't. My life is still lingering over every drop of love he has ever given me. Even though I may not have always seen that love, i know it was still there, and like a fool, i let go of something i never knew i needed, and i had him.... and now every tear i cry, i watch him slip further and further away from me, and it's my fault. It's my fault i let him make me cry, and it's my fault i am dealing with this pain and misery, but if this is love.... I'd do it all over again.
- i remember the worst.... i think of the times i cried. i thought i couldn't hurt more, but i was wrong. Because the pain of loosing you doesn't at all compare to what i feel now, because the pain i feel now is the pain of knowing i will never get the chance to loose you again.
- It's hard realizing that i poured my heart out to you and you act like i'm some kind of idiot and that you don't want me. But i know one day you'll want me and i won't want you because you always want what you can't have....But that's how my life goes. I still love you and i will never forget you, and i pray, even though we never talk anymore, that when you sleep at night you dream of me as i do of you.
- Lately, i talk to your memory more than i should. If i could forget the past, i would, cause this missing you isn't doing me any good.
- It's when i'm standing 6 feet away from you and not being able to find the words to tell you how much i love you and how much i miss you that i just want to scream to the whole room that i'm still in love with you. It's when im sitting alone with the phone in my head dialing your number and hanging up that i would trade a thousand tomorrows for just one yesterday, It's when i'm really sad about something and need someone to talk to that i realize you're the only one who really knew me at all. It's when i cry myself to sleep at night and it hits me how much i would give to have you make me laugh.
-so maybe you were special, maybe you were supposed to be the one. but then again, maybe you were just like the rest of them, only you took my heart with you when you left.
- I don't know what's wrong with me lately, as much as i don't want him, there's still a part of me that wants all of him
- i pretended not to light up when you entered the room, i pretended not to be upset when we got in a fight, i pretended i didn't look forward to seeing you everyday, and i pretended i was completely over you. Now these lies have showed me i miss you more then i realized.




I really do miss you, just being my friend.

Dear Boys,

You may not be her first, her last, her only. She's loved before, she may love again, but se loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect, and you're not either. If she can make you laugh, and if she admits to being human, and making  mistakes, hold onto her, and give her the most you can. She's not going to be thinking about you every moment of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she know you can break, and that's her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze, and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there. Because perfect girls don't exist, but there's always one girl that is perfect for you.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down, probably will. You will have your heart broken, probably more than once, and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts two, so remember how it felt when your's was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing so fast. You'll eventually loose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too hard, and love too much.
- Sometimes you've got to run away to see if they will follow.
- There's nothing scarier than getting what you want, because that's when you really have something to loose.
-It's kinda hard to go out with someone, when you know, deep down, you're still in love with someone else. - someday, someone will just, affect you... in this way that you never thought possible, don't understand, and haven't really ever felt before. You find yourself thinking about that person all the time, even when you don't realize it. You care what they think, and worry that they may think poorly of you. You go out of your way just to walk behind him.You want to be a better person, just for him. he just gets to you. you just can't understand it, and you don't have to. just try and make the best of it, and think of him, if thinking makes you happy. It doesn't matter if he feels it too, it doesn't matter if it's unrequited, it will still be unforgettable.


-And always remember this... never say I love you if you don't care. Never talk about feelings, if they aren't really there. Never touch a life, if you mean to break a heart. Never say you're going to if you don't plan to start. Never look them in the eye, if all you do is lie. Never say hello, if you really mean goodbye.

FAVORITE SONG LYRICS

-All that i'm after is a life full of laughter, as long as i'm laughin with you (Daughtry)
- The spaces between my fingers are right where your's fit perfectly (Owl City)
- i love how you walk with your hands in your pockets, how you kiss me when i was in the middle of sayin somethin. There's not a day I don't miss those rude interuptions. (Taylor Swift)
- So i'll watch your life in pictures like i used to watch you sleep. and i'll feel you forget me like i used to feel you breath and i'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how u are hope its nice where you are. (Taylor Swift)
- And i hope the sun shines it's a beautiflu eday and somethin reminds you, you wish you had stayed. You can plan for a change in the weather and time, but i never planned on you changing your mind. (Taylor Swift)
- Got that glitter on my eyes. Stockings ripped all up the sides lookin sick and sexy-fide so lets go lets go! tonight we're goin hard hard ha haha hard just like the world is ourourrrrours we're tearin it apart part partpapapart you know we're superstars we are who we are. we're dancin like we're dumb dumb dum dum dumb our body's goin numb numb num numnumb numb we'll be forever young young yu yu yu young you know we're superstars. We R who we R. (Kesha)
- don't live a lie. This is your 1 life. don't live it like u won't get lost just walk just walk. (Miley Cyrus)
- don't stop keep on walkin it. Don't stop keep on talkin s#it. DOn't stop keep on walkin it. (Miley Cyrs)
- if i could, have just one night, to be with you, to make it right, if what we were was what we are. it's hidden within the scars. if i could, take you there. I won't let go baby this i swear. you won't have to wonder what we are, cause you won't have to ever look to far. it's in the scars. (Miley Cyrus)
- she's not a saint and she's not what you think. She's an actress woah!. She's better known for the things that she does on the mattress woah. (Taylor Swift)
- i'd tell you i miss you but i don't know how. i've never heard silence quite this loud! (Taylor Swift)
- this is lookin like a contest. of who can act like they care less. but i liked it better when you were on my side. the battles in your hands now. but i would lay my armor down. if you said you'd rather love than fight. So many things that you wish I knew but the story of us might be ending soon. (Taylor Swift)

I wanna be forever young

According to parents, we're too young for love, too old for fun, too smart to play dumb, and too immature for grown-up conversations. No wonder we're rebellious

some random quotes

-of all the people i know.... you're one of them
- one out of 4 americans are mentally retarded so if 3 of your friends are fine...... you're in trouble.
- gay burglars broke into our house last night, all they did was rearrange the furniture.
- never put off till tomorrow what you can avoid doing completely
- unique is an understatement, im just messed up
- hi, i'm probably home, i'm just avoiding someone i don't like. leave a message, and if i don't call you back, you'll know it's you.
- Death #1 killer in the u.s.
- why is it when you're little your parents teach you to walk and talk but when you're older all you hear is sit down and shut up.
- 2 words guy's hate- don't and stop- unless you put them together.
- no one's a virgin, life screws us all.
- FACT- every hot guy is either 1)gay, 2) fictional, or 3) taken
- Dear teacher, save the trees- don't give us homework
- girls are armed with attitude and we know how to use it
- when your ex boyfriend gets a new girlfriend she is automatically considered a slutty whore.
- I watch CSI, NCIS, and criminal mind, I know how to make your death look like an accident.
- girls are like burger king, have it your way, but don't go crazy
- Stop puttin me on hold for her... i'm not your plan b
- We are the queens of gossip, we know everything, so don't even try
- giving your friend the "what the hell" look during a test
- someday you're prince charming will come. mine just took a wrong turn, got lost, and is too stubborn to ask for directions.
- the older i get the less i care
- dear boys, when girls say "k" you should know we're pissed
- I wonder how police on bikes arrest people "alright get in the basket"
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the world of love- what a crazy place to live

- the bad thing about falling for someone who's not right for you at all, is that you end up falling anyway because you think that they might actually turn out to be different.
- i wonder what i could do, or say to make him like me. i wonder what or who i will have to be to be his. I wonder when just being me will be enough.
- i get the best feeling in the world when you say hi to me, or even smile, because i know, even if just for a second, i crossed your mind.
- love hurts when you breakup with someone. It hurts even worse when someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you love has no idea what so ever
- you really know you love someone when all you want is for them to be happy, even if it means your not part of it.
- watching you from a distance, afraid to get close, i'm hoping you realize who loves you the most. But unless you open your eyes to the one who is always there you won't realize who really cares.
- i wish i knew exactly what to do, wish i knew what to say so i could be the one who takes your breath away.
- the worst thing a guy can do is make a girl fall for them without the intention to catch her.
- the worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right next to them knowing you can't have them
- the loneliest place i've ever been was not when i was alone, it was when  i was in love with someone who wasn't in love with me.
- i hate the way you look at me, and the way you act so weird. I hate the way you have no clue. I hate it when you're far not near. I heate your stupid everything and the way you have no fears. I hate you so much it makes me sick. I hate it when you're mad or when you make me happy. Even worse when you make me sad. I hate it that you're just my friends and the fact you don't care. But most of all i hate the way i don't hate you not even close, not even a little bit. It's soo not fair.
- i love him, i hate him , he's always on my mind. I'm sweating him, forgetting him, i just want him to be mine.
- the last time i looked into your eyes i knew nothing would ever be the same... it hurt so bad to look away.
- all those sweet things you said play back in my head, i don't know if they were true, but all i know is i have to pretend i don't care, try not to think about you anymore. Keep it all bottled up inside, let go of the memories, and being in your life.
- it's never too late, you still have chances in life, you'll get up once again, you'll laugh again, you'll live again, and you'll love again.
- you watch her walk through the room, big smile, laughing, looking happy. you'd never guess she goes home and cries herself to sleep over you.
- love leaves a memory no one can conseal, but it also leaves a heartache no one can heal.
- all i can do is smile and walk away, hide all my tears and pretend i'm okay.
- it's amazing how someone can break your heart and yet you still love them with every broken bit of it.

life without you

- it really hurts when you expected so much more from the person you once loved so much.
- Once upon a time i was falling in love, but now i'm only falling apart.
- You don't have to let it slip away but you want to, i don't want to let it slip away but i have to
- i thought that by telling myself and everyone else that i hated you that sooner or later i would believe it, but now i realize that lying made me want you more.
- every few nights or so you pop into my dreams, i just can't get rid of you like you got rid of me.
- the saddest thing in life is loving someone who used to love you.
- i wish you could look at me and see the person you once loved instead of the person you have grown to hate.
- don't say we weren't meant to be beacause if we weren't you wouldn't have been here in the first place.
- i miss you a little. a little too much, a little too often, and a little bit more each day.
- i can make everyone believe that i don't love you, but i'm finding it so difficult to convince myself that it's true.

life is why i cry

- I sleep so i don't have to feel
- I don't know if you ever felt like this, that you wanted to sleeop for a thousand years, or just not exist, or just not be aware that you exist. I want it when I get like this. That's why i'm trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning.
- Behind my smile is everything you'll never understand
- Life doesn't hurt until you think about how much things have change, who you've lost along the way and how much of it you couldn't control.
- When i cry at night they only thing i can think to myself is how can i seem so perfectl fine in the morning? Why do i smile like nothing is wrong? and how does not one single person notice that i'm not okay.
- I don't knwo what i'm doing anymore. I don't know what i want to see. My world used to be worth living for, now it's hard enough to be me.
- I feel so empty yet i feel so much pain
- there's supposed to be a light at the end of the tunnel. How long is it going to take to see the end.
- When you finally realize you didn't matter to someone you start to think if you matter to anyone. or if you even matter at all.
- smiling is only a symptom of happiness and can be faked. don't assume that everybody that smiles is happy.
- i feel sometimes that nobody has held me down and forced me to cry or made me hug them, or got to the inside of me, i just say i'm fine and smile, nobody ever said "no you're not".
- I love sleep, my life has the tendency to fall apart when i'm awake.
- one smile can hide a thousand tears
- i'm so lonely i don't even wanna be with myself anymore
- there is nothing worse than being surrounded by people and feeling life you're all alone

Friends gotta love'em

- Partyin and hangin out, all night long, i can't believe i'm gonna be gone, through our secrets and lies i'll still be by your side, cause no matter whenever or wherver we will still be friends forever.
- i'm glad we had the time together, just to laugh and sing a song, seems like we just got started and then before you know it, the times we had together are gone.
- If time slips away and you haven't heard from me, always remember that our bond is more than just words, it's a feeling of togetherness in our hearts and soul.
- I want to remember how you made me laugh and sometimes cry, and I never want to forget how special and differend you are, and how you touched my life in a way that no one else could.
- How do I say goodbye to what we had, the good times outweigh the bad. I thought we'd get to see forever, but forever's gone away. It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
- Never say goodbye because saying goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting.
- I'll never find another friend to take the place of you. No one will ever touch my world exactly like you do. No one who's quiet so thoughfull, no one i cherish so. NO one will mean so much to me. I just wanted you to know.
- If two hearts are meant to be friends, no matter how long it takes, how far they go, how tough it seems, fate will bring them together to share friendship forever.
- The most beautiful discovery true friends can make is that they can grow seperatly without growing apart.

Tears run free

- Do you ever get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody, you don't want to smile and you don't want to fake being happy. But at the same time you don't know exactly what's wrong either.
- Because i never really had you at all, i didn't think it would hurt this much to loose you.
- I just want one day to go by where I'm not pretending i'm happy.
- It's amazing how you make your face just like a wall, how you take your heart and turn it off, and all i can do is turn my head and loose it all.
- You'll never understand why i hurt so much because you're not the one who is crying, you're not the one who is left behind, you're not the one who loved too much and you're not the one holding onto someone who is gone.
- Moving on is a simple thing, what it leaves behind is the hard part.
- Don't ever give up on something or someone that you can't go a day without thinking about.
- A million words wouldn't bring you back, i know because i've tried, neither would a million tears, i know because i've cried.
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Hard time in life can suck

- behind my smile is a hurting heart. Behind my laugh i'm falling apart. Look closely at me and you will see, the girl i am, isn't me.
- To tell you the truth i've just been avoiding everything.
- Don't say you know me, when I don't even know myself.
- I know God wouldn't give me anything I couldn't handle, I wish he didn't trust me so much.
- When I do something great, no one seems to notice. But when i do something wrong, no one seems to forget.
- Have you ever felt so alone and nothing makes sense? Well that's how I feel right now.... I feel like i'm facing everything myself, with nothing but tears and a fake smile.
- There's this girl in the mirror, i wonder who she is. Sometimes i think i know her and sometimes i wish i did. There is a story in her eyes, lullabies and goodbyes. When she's lookin back at me I can tell she's hurting inside.
- I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of crying. I know i've been smiling, but inside i'm dying.
- She smiles with all that she has left, yet tears are left undried. And though she's got so much bottled up inside, if you look past her broken eyes to a shadow no one sees, a disguise so you won't recognize, that girl is really me.
- Just because her eyes don't tear doesn't mean her heart doesn't cry and just because she comes off strong doesn't mean there's nothing wrong.
- A strong girl keeps her stuff inline and with tears running, she still manages to spit out the simple words "i'm fine"

you wouldn't understand

- I don't think you understand how hard it is to talk to you just as friends because i want every sentence I say to turn into I love you.
- It's killing me to know you without having a chance to hold you, all I want to do is show you how i really feel inside.
- You can run to me, you can laugh at me, or you can walk right out that door. But I can't be just friends anymore. I hate that you don't love me... but what I hate more is that no matter how much you don't love me I still love you.
- My head is filled with mixed emotions about me and you. I used to know but now i have no clue. You make me happy, you make me sad. Thinking of you and all we could have. I keep to myself but my heart won't let you go.
- You don't have to be together for him to break your heart. 
- Sometimes I look at you and you seem to be looking back at me. But sometimes you look away like you're afraid of what might happen if you stare a second longer.
- Loving him- hard to regret. Loosing him- hard to accept.  But with all the hurt i've felt letting go is the most painful yet.

tell me what's goin on

-I don't know where I stand with you. I never met anyone like you. I don't know what I mean to you, or even what it is I see in you. All I know is everytime I see you all I want is to be with you forever.
- I dream about you everynight, wishing you were here to hold me tight. I want you to kiss away my tears, and gaurd me from my biggest fears.
- If I found a 4 leaf clover, if I had a shiny new penny, if I owned a lucky horseshoe, if i had my own genie in a bottle, if i saw a shooting star, i'd only have 1 wish.... to be with you.
- With you I get this feeling I can't explain. I can't help smile when you say my name, and then I look right into your eyes and I get these crazy butterflies.
- What can I do to make you mine. Falling so hard, so fast this time. What did you say? What did you do? To make me fall in love with you.
- Boy you know i'm crushing for you. Boy, I know you don't feel this way two. You may never know the pain you put me through but seeing you smile makes it all fade away.

more than friend

It's really weird, we used to be friends but now, all of a sudden, you're all I think about. How do I tell you that I like you. How ccan I say that you're the only thing on my mind. We're suppposed to be friends, but for me, there's so much more there. I just don't know how to tell you. I know you just want to be friends... and that's ok with me, But please just stop making me fall even harder.

O love

-I could not recall a more perfect fall cause when I looked up in his eyes, it didn't hurt at all.
- If I had to choose between loving you and breathing I would use my last breath to say I love you.
- We were given 2  hands to hold, 2 legs to walk, 2 eyes to see, 2 ears to listen, but why only 1 heart? Because the other was given to someone else 4 us to find.
- If you love someone, let them go. If they come back to you, their yours 4ever. If they don't then it was never meant to be.
- to be your friend was all I ever wanted. To be your lover is all I'll ever need.
- You are what I never knew I always wanted.
- If i had a single flower for everytime I think about you I would be walking forever.
- Don't say you love me unless you really mean it. Because I might do something crazy......like believe it.

A letter i'll never send, to the one i'll always love.

Sometimes life isn't easy at all, sometimes when I'm here alone I wish I was there with you just a precious moment, to give you a big hug. There comes a time, a point in your life when you realize who mattersm who never didm who won't anymore and who always will. So I won't worry about the people in my past cause there's a reason they didn't make it to my future. But that can be hard, really hard. My mind tells me to give up but my heart won't let me, and though it hurts me to move on I know it should be for the best. But you know it kills me to wonder what could have been, what we could havve been. I don't understand how we could click so fast but yet we aren't together. I just want, for once, somthing to work for me. I mean I finally found someone I really like and I can't be with him, are you serious, are you freaking kidding me! I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we could have but I can't because I know you won't come after me. My grandmother once told me, "don't give up if you still want to try, don't ever wipe your tears if you still want to cry, don't ever setttle for an answer if you don't want to know," so i won't say I don't love hime cause I can't let him go. I feel I neet to get over him though, but most days I don't want to. Ugh, when all the memories come back. But I'll never find the right one if I don't let go of the wrong one. But how do I now if you're the wrong one. Sometimes I pretend I'm alright because when everybody thinks you're fine you forget you're not for a short amount of time. If everything happens for a reason what's the reason behind this

When I first met you....

When I first met you, I never imagined that I would have such strong feeling for you. I never would have thought I would have dreams about you, or miss being by your side, or get butterflies when someone mentions your name. I never thought I would......

Love you

Bits and Pieces

-People ask me all the time, what do you see in him. I can't help smile and say "everything".
- You know you love him when you can't help cry everynight, because you know he's not yours.
- Dreaming of you makes my night worth while, thinking of you makes me smile, being with you is the best thing ever. Loving you i'll do forever.
- It's not my fault i fell in love. You're the one who tripped me.
- I know that this may be pointless, holding on, but something tells me that you're where I belong.
- I love you, it's more than a crush, I can't even listen to 1 song without thinking about you.
- I've fallen so deep and hard for you, maybe too hard becase I can't get up.
- When you're around I don't care about anything else, my friends, my problems, they just dissapear, just because you're here. You simply take away all my fears.
- I want to know what I mean to you. Just tell me that truth. I can't keep living a lie, if that's what all this is. I need an answer even though it might kill me.