Dear you,

Things have changed. I'm not that girl that you can come to, and have me drop everything to be at your every whim. I don't "belong" to you anymore. Yes, I've said that a part of me will always care for you but you have to realize that I have to move on in every way possible. I am trying to be your friend, I really am. But if you want that to be possible it has to be on my rules. I'm sorry that i seem to be "off" all the time. But this is me trying. There are SO many things that I could say to you but it would ruin any form of friendship that we would ever have because the things that come to my mind to say to you are not nice in the least. When you say "why don't you text me back" or "you don't seem like you want to talk to me" that's cause most of the time I don't! But like I said, I'm trying. I'm trying to be a "big girl" about this. But there are days and moments when I just want to go off on you, and the bad thing is, is that I know that I kinda have the right to! And you dont get to be mad at me for it! I want to say that if you wanted me to be there for you you should've taken advantage of the bazillion chances you've had in the past! But you've missed the boat now. I have a GREAT guy that cares about me and I will NOT let anything mess our relationship up. He makes me happy, and he worries about me, and makes sure that I am happy. And he doesn't do those things just for his own benefit in the long run. He is wonderful. And one of the reasons I can see just how great he is, is because he's sticking around to clean up the mess YOU made. He knows how broken I am but loves me anyway and doesn't expect more than I can give. He doesn't expect me to just "get over it" like others have told me. He just loves me and accepts that somedays I can't give him the best sides of me. Sometimes the broken girl is all there is. I still find it funny that you don't see the effects of your actions in the past on me. You don't understand what I still have to go through because of you. But I don't want to explain it to you cause I don't want your bull shit about it. I have an amazing boyfriend now and thats where I'm at.

I've let you go. Down into the dark depths. You used to be "my jack" but now you're just my scar.

Found this draft saved on here from sometime in the past. Pictures I had saved from tumblr.

Oh life. Somedays we're friends. And someways you're a real bitch