he needs to know

Why did i break up with him? well, its like once i sat down and looked at the situation, all the pieces lying on the floor, it just wasn't a puzzle anymore. none of the pieces fit together. and even if i tried really hard, the pieces, well they were two different puzzles. thats why i did it. he needs to understand that

i guess there comes a point where you just have to stop trying because it hurts too much to hold on

--maybe one day it'll be okay again. that's all i want. i don't care what it takes, i just want to be okay again.
--im tired of living, yet scared of dying
--i don't necessarily want to be happy, i just want to stop feeling miserable.
--im just learning how to smile, and that's not easy to do.
--stop the world. i want to get off
--i bleed for you, thats why i cut. those simple scars are just deep thoughts
--you bleed just to know you're alive
--i don't know what i want in life. i don't know what i want right now. all i know is that im hurting so much inside that it's eating me, and one day, there wont be any of me left
--everything that ever cause a tear to trickle down my cheek, i ran away and hid from it. but now, everything is unwinding and finding its way back towards me. and i don't know what to do, i just know that the pain i felt so long ago, it's hurting ten times more
--i don't know if im getting better, or just used to the pain.
--i know what it's like to want to die; how it hurts to smile; how you try to fit in but you cant; how you hurt yourself on the outside, to try to kill the thing that's in the inside.
--you look at me and think "she's so happy" but there's so much behind this little smile that you will never know.
--what do you do when you become too scared. too scared to live, too scared to die, too scared  to love, too scared to even care.
--sometimes i think that if i wasnt so good at pretending to be, id be better at actually being happy
--everynight before i go to sleep i lie on my bed and stare up at my blank walls. i try to imagine the future, but right now it's as blank as those walls. all i can see is the past that i can barely recognize anymore.
-- you never know when you wake up, if it will all be the same, or if you'll be back in your dark place again to feel the pain.
--beware of the person that has nothing to lose
--take it from someone who'se fallen...its a long way down
--they say you need to pray, if you want to go to heaven. but they dont tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to hell.
--the only thing standing between me and total happiness, is reality
--nothing can stop me now because i don't care anymore
--in that one instance, i hated everyone in my life. everyone and everything. and me most of all
--i'll fake all the smiles, if it stops all the questions.
--i cut to prove to you that you are not the only one that can hurt me
--i've come to the point where nothing matters anymore. and the things i used to care about, aren't worth fighting for
--i believe in whatever gets you through the night. night is the hardest time to be alive. for me anyway. it lasts so long and four am knows all my secrets.