Thursday, September 13, 2012

Love, is giving someone the ability to destroy your heart...but trusting them not to


--everyday that goes by it seems like I discover something new about you to love. It's incredible to me how one person can make such a big difference in my life, you touch me in a way no one else ever has and give me so many reasons to love you.
--I may forget what you said but I'll never forget how you made me feel
-- meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control
--I told my self I would never love again, but as much as I didn't want to, you came along and made me
--there are only two times I want to be with you, now and forever
-- you know it's right, when no matter what you're doing or what kind of mood your in the thought of him can make you smile
-- when you smiled you had my undivided attention. When you laughed I had the urge to laugh with you, but when you said you loved me, you had my heart forever.
--you are everything I never knew I wanted
--you make me smile for no reason what so ever. You make me laugh at the unfunniest things. But most of all you make me love you when I didn't think I could
Why I love you is a hard question to answer. I love you because you care for me like no one else I know. I love the way I feel in your arms, so safe from the dangers in the world. I love your eyes, so hypnotic and mesmerizing, beautiful to face into, and yet never revealing everything to me. I can't explain every way that I love you because that's impossible. But I can say I love you because you are you.
--This is so different. You're so different. Finally, I've realized what I deserve and it's this, not what I had before
--I need you. You're the guy who can make me laugh just by the way he says hello when I pick up the phone...the guy who makes my hands shake when I'm sitting next to him...and the guy who isn't afraid to keep hugging me when i'm not ready to let go yet
--just the thought of being with you tomorrow is enough to get me through today.
--it's YOU. You mean everything to me... You are the first thought in my head in the morning when I wake up; my last though before I go to bed, and you smile at me in my dreams. When you are sad, I feel sad. And when I see your true smile, I feel incredible, like there is no other thing around and all I can see is you.
-- maybe it's the way you grab my hand and hold it. Or the way you kiss me. Or maybe it's the way you let me put my arms around you. Maybe it's the way you look at me, and your smile just makes me melt. Maybe it's the way we can talk in the phone for hours about absolutely nothing but I still feel like I just had the best conversation of my whole life. Maybe it's the way that I want to break down and cry when I think about how you hold me up on a pedestal. Maybe that's what makes me want you so much
--you wrapped your arms around me, pressing your body against mine and in that moment of perfection I knew we were meant to be. And I never wanted you to let me go.
--That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to dry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that it will go away all at the same time.

I love you because I know you're always there. There to catch me when I fell, there to listen when I need you, there when I feel alone. I love you because you understand me. You know how I feel even when I can't say it.687 know I'm not as strong as I say and still you never let me know that I'm not fooling you. I love you because you make me believe. Believe that I am not worthless, believe that I can be loved, and loved, and can love others. I love you because you know. You know I feel this way but can't say it and still you wait. Letting me take my time to come to terms with the fact that I live you, would give my life up to be with you, and above all; never hurt you, lie to you, or leave you. Now I hope you understand how and why I love you.Im sorry I didn't know how to word this before.

I realize now that dying is the easy part. Living is hard

--I still love him. Nothing's changed. He's still that same guy that can make me laugh with the blink of an eye
--one mention of your name and I can't stop the thoughts. I even saw you in my dream last night...I thought I was past that stage.
--and then somebody brings up your name an I'm back in that place, trying to remember how to be okay
--you'll always be my "what if"
--was I just an option when you were bored?
--don't worry, he'll miss you. You're the best he could get, and he blew it. Don't let him make you think for one second that this was your fault. It's not. He screwed up, and you did absolutely nothing wrong. You gave him your heart, and you trusted him to keep it and protect it, but he couldn't. And honestly, he's not mature enough. He's not smart enough. If he was smart, he would have cared for you with every fiber of his being and been with you ever spare second he could. But he didn't and now he's gone. But don't you cry. Don't call him telling him you miss him. Dont text him don't message him, dont talk to him.
--I'm ready to let go, move on, and be happy but there will always be this little shred of well maybe he'll want me tomorrow
--I thought I still loved you but then I realized I just love the memories of who you used to be