i somehow fell in love with you, now i wish i could say "to hell with you"

--i wish that i could tell him how i feel. i wish i wouldn't worry about what everyone else thinks. i wish he would just love me back. and i wish the everything would have a happy ending....but everyone has a dream...right?
-- i don't know what i'm gonna do... i've spent days and nights without you... it hurts me so bad to know you're not there... but you know i love you and you don't even care... i wish i could get you to see how much.... how i love looking in your eyes, and your gentle touch... but i should move on.... i know, but i just can't seem to let go
-- tears running down my cheeks, this isn't the way it's supposed to be. you'd think by now i'd have realized, i shouldn't need you in my life. But i do, i want you so badly i can barely breath and that's what's hurting. That's what's killing me.
-- I'm not angry because we broke up, i'm sad because i can't let you go. I'm happy because of the memories we made, i'm sad because i can't stop reliving them in my mind. I'm not angry at you for not loving me, i'm angry with me for still loving you. I'm not angry that i lost you, i'm sad because i once had you. I'm not angry that i can't have you, i'm sad because i know what i'm missing. I'm not angry that you've moved on, i'm sad because i can't. I'm not angry that you won't come back, i'm sad because i keep hoping you will. I'm not angry because i hate you and don't want to....I'm sad because i miss you and i love you
-- forget his name, forget his face, forget his smile. his warm embrace. For him him when they play our song. Forget you cried the whole night long. Forget how close you two once were. Remember, he has chosen her. Forget you memorized his walk, forget the way he used to talk. Forget the things he used to say, remember he has gone away. Forget his laugh, forget his grin, forget the dimples on his chin. Forget the way he held you tight, remember he's with her tonight. Forget the times that went so fast, forget the love that now has passed. Forget he said he's never leave you. Remember she will never be you
-- i miss the days you held me and the days i heard your voice. i miss the days you were here. Us falling apart was not my choice. i miss the days you kissed me and the feelings we used to show, but most of all, i miss the guy i used to know.
-- in what seemed like one split second, i lost what i held most dear to me... at the mere blink of an eye it was all gone... so i ran after you... and held on as tight as my tiny hand could grasp. Already weak from all the torment i could not allow myself to let go. Love that once shined so bright turned dark and angry... i loved you more than i ever dreamed of loving someone. You were the last star in my big lonely sky. My only dream ever come true....but now you were gonna end up like all the rest. I tried.... i tried so hard. But my love isn't enough anymore. I will never forget you. My last star has fallen....